What to do?

Lately I have been so confused! I just don"t know what to do or say anymore. It feels like the world just drop all it's problems on me all at once! I feel like I am being used. It isn't a good feeling. I just wish it would be all ok...but it won't. It never will be ok! I know that life isn't perfect but why is it so terrible at the moment? I feel like I am choice number two compared to everyone! I feel like I am losing everyone that is close to me. This is when my Great Grandma was still alive so I could talk to her about this. She always knew what to say to make me fell better! She always gave AMAZING advice that was always the right thing to do in the deal I was in. But now I don't have her for my problems anymore. I just need to know what is wrong with me for you to ignore me now, or talk to me as much as you did before. I feel like if I just stopped caring for others and gave up, I would feel alot better. But I can't stop caring for you, you make me so happy! Ugh I don't know what to do. I just wanna be a robot so I don't have feelings or emotions! I feel like everything you have ever said was all LIES LIES LIES! I have had enough of this! The song I can't stop thinking of now is Liar Liar by Never Shout Never[NSN] It feels like this song is perfect for me at this moment in time.